Black Tuesday
Definitely not the best tuesday I have experienced in my life, in fact not even the closet tragedy comes within a thousand miles of this. A serious offence was commited and I pleaded to it telling myself that I did the right thing by not covering my mistake, mistakes which people make everyday yet not having courage or ethics to blister themselves instead of finding cover.
Negligence Discharge of a 5.56mm blank round, if it was a live round that I fired someone would be dead by now. Dead, something like someone wading into Bedok Reservoir and never come back on his own accord. As such, I was charged with Stoppage Of Leave for a good 7 days.
I do understand that there are at least a thousand others who made similar offences in the history and probably in the next hundred thousand years of history. However, the impact which sledgehammed the mind when it is fired at someone leaves a mark deep beneath. Thankfully, the particle that came out of the muzzle that was aiming at the head of someone else was not a projectile from the head of a bullet, just hot air. Easily it would turn into a scar, dropping your soul into an abyss inside your heart, producing a lifeless frame of you who only knows how to regret.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Solemn Judgement
I'll just be frank on this one. It is pretty boring and unglamorous for me to repeat everything that I have done before. Sadly, I have to because it is a requirement. On contrary to strucking a gold mine I would label this as unfortunate. Well pretty much, it has been rather true that one would beg for objectives after idling around for some time. My conclusion, just don't pray for an easy life.
As an infant we started our lives as dwellings crawling out empires on the surface of earth using our bare hands. It seems pretty relaxed and cheerful for us and the people around. As we progress and grow older, we began to ask for bargains in our lives, in any ways we can think of to ease our daily pressure. Fortunately however, we usually get our ways and according to plan, live a good life. Mind you to beware of that because life is predetermined by your actions. This is the first argument that minnows may attempt to argue.
A sad case that happened 2 months ago threw me back into the suffering I have undergone a season ago. Fortunately I understood all the requirements and skills crucial for cruising past the course again. Unfortunately however, I found it pretty boring, the sense that you are thrown into the abyss of forging ahead into unknown territories full of obstacles is gone, totally gone, not even a dust remains in this pithole. You may think that we are living a life full of pressure and challenges. Appreciate that before it is gone and you depart from this sanctuary forever into the dawn skies.
I'll just be frank on this one. It is pretty boring and unglamorous for me to repeat everything that I have done before. Sadly, I have to because it is a requirement. On contrary to strucking a gold mine I would label this as unfortunate. Well pretty much, it has been rather true that one would beg for objectives after idling around for some time. My conclusion, just don't pray for an easy life.
As an infant we started our lives as dwellings crawling out empires on the surface of earth using our bare hands. It seems pretty relaxed and cheerful for us and the people around. As we progress and grow older, we began to ask for bargains in our lives, in any ways we can think of to ease our daily pressure. Fortunately however, we usually get our ways and according to plan, live a good life. Mind you to beware of that because life is predetermined by your actions. This is the first argument that minnows may attempt to argue.
A sad case that happened 2 months ago threw me back into the suffering I have undergone a season ago. Fortunately I understood all the requirements and skills crucial for cruising past the course again. Unfortunately however, I found it pretty boring, the sense that you are thrown into the abyss of forging ahead into unknown territories full of obstacles is gone, totally gone, not even a dust remains in this pithole. You may think that we are living a life full of pressure and challenges. Appreciate that before it is gone and you depart from this sanctuary forever into the dawn skies.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Pride and Prejudice
No, I am not writing a famous novel. It is just the smuggness I am getting whenever i was called for duty. I am the Company Orderly Sergeant and today is a public holiday. It could be because of my experience in doing such duties and the amount of time I spent here that I didn't really feel depressed and devastated when i found out my duty. No, I would never get into such state.
Always taking pride in the stuffs that I do in my life, serving a country which I have no blood connection but decided to since it has given me education and a life. Mind you there is a difference between happiness and living a good life. I would prefer whichever that gives me peace and the goals that I want to achieve in my life.
As much as I would like to, I hope to get back whatever that I sacrificed for serving duties given by the army and my destiny. Sadly, I am matured to give myself a knock in my head, telling my heart that I have to endure such unfortunate times in my life which I have and will always be experiencing like all other people. Life is formless, it is the chance that gives people the advantage and disadvantage. Like I have said earlier, there is no such thing as luck. Your future is crafted by your own hands. It is reasonable and foolish to complain about life since it will do nothing but ruin plans and time further.
Have a nice view of life.
No, I am not writing a famous novel. It is just the smuggness I am getting whenever i was called for duty. I am the Company Orderly Sergeant and today is a public holiday. It could be because of my experience in doing such duties and the amount of time I spent here that I didn't really feel depressed and devastated when i found out my duty. No, I would never get into such state.
Always taking pride in the stuffs that I do in my life, serving a country which I have no blood connection but decided to since it has given me education and a life. Mind you there is a difference between happiness and living a good life. I would prefer whichever that gives me peace and the goals that I want to achieve in my life.
As much as I would like to, I hope to get back whatever that I sacrificed for serving duties given by the army and my destiny. Sadly, I am matured to give myself a knock in my head, telling my heart that I have to endure such unfortunate times in my life which I have and will always be experiencing like all other people. Life is formless, it is the chance that gives people the advantage and disadvantage. Like I have said earlier, there is no such thing as luck. Your future is crafted by your own hands. It is reasonable and foolish to complain about life since it will do nothing but ruin plans and time further.
Have a nice view of life.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Disaster
Half a year without bowling and what is the result? Bad games? I can absolutely assure you that it is much worse than that. During the first frame of the first game, the ball flew up barely hitting the alley ceiling before thundering a blow onto the alley floor, creating a sound which draws the attention of almost everyone at the location at that time. Embarrassing? Oh no, it is much worse than anything from farting at a crowded venue or peeing with doors opened. Seriously, what do you expect me to do? I simply rubbed more dry powder and pretend that it is an accident due to over friction from my thumb. That pretty much concluded my disastrous week.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Lands of Mirage
Now, when I started painting I didn't expect to accomplish any works which would be referred as creations of a mad artist. Lest expected, you get addicted to the abyss of endless creation which is pretty much what the writer of this post is currently experiencing. Pleasantly however, he likes the smell; aroma of linseed oil (or odour for those who are not genetically fated with art) fragrancing the room. To be exact, time must wind back 7 weeks before my campaign begun. A campaign to facade an artist who pursued color creativity to someone adamant on the usage of accurate color, pardon me if I wouldn't classify it as 'realistic'. So, these are the works:
Dawn of the horizon
Eternal Green
Sakura
http://www.facebook.com/patias#!/photo.php?fbid=2232469542742&set=a.2173592550854.117755.1578011267&type=1&theater
Due to the internet security in a typical Singapore army camp, downloading and uploading of pictures are not recommended as that would slap you with a confinement and/or detention.
Now, when I started painting I didn't expect to accomplish any works which would be referred as creations of a mad artist. Lest expected, you get addicted to the abyss of endless creation which is pretty much what the writer of this post is currently experiencing. Pleasantly however, he likes the smell; aroma of linseed oil (or odour for those who are not genetically fated with art) fragrancing the room. To be exact, time must wind back 7 weeks before my campaign begun. A campaign to facade an artist who pursued color creativity to someone adamant on the usage of accurate color, pardon me if I wouldn't classify it as 'realistic'. So, these are the works:
Dawn of the horizon
Eternal Green
Sakura
http://www.facebook.com/patias#!/photo.php?fbid=2232469542742&set=a.2173592550854.117755.1578011267&type=1&theater
Due to the internet security in a typical Singapore army camp, downloading and uploading of pictures are not recommended as that would slap you with a confinement and/or detention.
Friday, July 8, 2011
3rd Sergeant 3SG Washington Eric Xiao
A day worthy of remembering in my life. Started out as an online posting notice given by the richest company in Singapore, SAF. The doorway to becoming a commander pounded on a heart that died long ago, leaving only an idea that condemned me to become an ordinary man in the army in the near future. Not anymore, as the words to entering SISPEC becomes a reality, officially.
6 months to receiving a rank with 3 arrows on it, the American version looks better and worth more, seriously. Not only is the cash reward tempting, but the prospect of being able to command corporals and privates under you is real exciting to imagine.
3 more days to dragging my duffel bag and carrying that irritating field pack on my sweaty back, uncomfortable and annoying it will be. They say SISPEC is more slacking than OCS, well I hope so, it must be worth the slacking if we can only obtain a Sergeants rank. Don't get it wrong, theres no compromising of what we must do, discipline or physical vice versa. Do it, but don't overdo because it's not worth it.
A day worthy of remembering in my life. Started out as an online posting notice given by the richest company in Singapore, SAF. The doorway to becoming a commander pounded on a heart that died long ago, leaving only an idea that condemned me to become an ordinary man in the army in the near future. Not anymore, as the words to entering SISPEC becomes a reality, officially.
6 months to receiving a rank with 3 arrows on it, the American version looks better and worth more, seriously. Not only is the cash reward tempting, but the prospect of being able to command corporals and privates under you is real exciting to imagine.
3 more days to dragging my duffel bag and carrying that irritating field pack on my sweaty back, uncomfortable and annoying it will be. They say SISPEC is more slacking than OCS, well I hope so, it must be worth the slacking if we can only obtain a Sergeants rank. Don't get it wrong, theres no compromising of what we must do, discipline or physical vice versa. Do it, but don't overdo because it's not worth it.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Something 'bout love
The pure sense of a guy wanting a girl to listen to what he wants, giving nothing but suffocation of dates and pestering through messages and calls is what I regard as childish and imbecile. For the past 5 weeks, I have understood that and I am grateful.
A relationship is about 2 person understanding each other, know what they want and not trying your best to influence how caring and nice you are. It just shows how sick you are as someone trying to adore an opposite sex. A mature girl needs to be respected, not by showing how loyal you are to her, or not by showing what you can do for her, it happens only in fairytales and rubbish Korean dramas. Someone who really likes the other person will know when to give her space to think and do her own things and not trying to lock her to you. On a casual note, you are not giving her freedom. On a serious note, it isn't exactly a legal thing to do, well if things really gets screwed up.
Don't go around thinking that as long as you are giving the best effort you can a relationship will go smoothly, it doesn't, in fact, it is probably a rigged and immature thought that arises from someone who has no soul, who does not understand himself. You have to have the matching personalities to get together, otherwise through the ravage of time you will feel despair, hopeless and you will have to kill yourself. Blame fate for not giving you that, it's life.
Oh one last thing, the only thing someone who is persistant over someone whom he likes but otherwise around gives nothing but despair and hatred to the person. Know when to stop to avoid becoming a clown, losing a ticket to becoming a good friend in the long future.
The pure sense of a guy wanting a girl to listen to what he wants, giving nothing but suffocation of dates and pestering through messages and calls is what I regard as childish and imbecile. For the past 5 weeks, I have understood that and I am grateful.
A relationship is about 2 person understanding each other, know what they want and not trying your best to influence how caring and nice you are. It just shows how sick you are as someone trying to adore an opposite sex. A mature girl needs to be respected, not by showing how loyal you are to her, or not by showing what you can do for her, it happens only in fairytales and rubbish Korean dramas. Someone who really likes the other person will know when to give her space to think and do her own things and not trying to lock her to you. On a casual note, you are not giving her freedom. On a serious note, it isn't exactly a legal thing to do, well if things really gets screwed up.
Don't go around thinking that as long as you are giving the best effort you can a relationship will go smoothly, it doesn't, in fact, it is probably a rigged and immature thought that arises from someone who has no soul, who does not understand himself. You have to have the matching personalities to get together, otherwise through the ravage of time you will feel despair, hopeless and you will have to kill yourself. Blame fate for not giving you that, it's life.
Oh one last thing, the only thing someone who is persistant over someone whom he likes but otherwise around gives nothing but despair and hatred to the person. Know when to stop to avoid becoming a clown, losing a ticket to becoming a good friend in the long future.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
What a boring+affluent / fun+poor(2 choose 1) world
Our life is made up of a big paradox which most of us can never understand how we are supposed to live life. Some turned to God and Islam while others turn to blood and astrology. You've got to admit you have to choose one from this post's title for your life unless you're one of those lucky punks who got to live a korean drama life.
Most of us are not rich, capable of only a decent life. Well that is an inception in most people. Why do you need a lot of cash when Heaven or Hell's got no money changer? Whoever you believed in bringing you into this world gave you less than a 100 years to make some achievements and at the end of the day you're just bringing your story that can't be shared into another world after your departure?
Of course, it may sound impractical and childish, well, since when did Disney and fantasy-like stuff became mature? Try living the life you yearned for, or are you going to leave it to the last years?
Our life is made up of a big paradox which most of us can never understand how we are supposed to live life. Some turned to God and Islam while others turn to blood and astrology. You've got to admit you have to choose one from this post's title for your life unless you're one of those lucky punks who got to live a korean drama life.
Most of us are not rich, capable of only a decent life. Well that is an inception in most people. Why do you need a lot of cash when Heaven or Hell's got no money changer? Whoever you believed in bringing you into this world gave you less than a 100 years to make some achievements and at the end of the day you're just bringing your story that can't be shared into another world after your departure?
Of course, it may sound impractical and childish, well, since when did Disney and fantasy-like stuff became mature? Try living the life you yearned for, or are you going to leave it to the last years?
Monday, January 17, 2011
To Those Who Shine
Apologies for the delay in posting about the trip to Kota Kinabalu. Those who laid their eyes on the East malaysian state for the first time could be forgiven for wondering how this dilapidated town can be safer than Malacca and Kuala Lumpur. Truth is it is, and it is a place with absolute awesomeness.
Day One: Lucas Lim's father always satisfies my hunger for speed in his Toyota Wish, ultimate imbar power. 4 years after I set foot again in Terminal 1. For once i thought I was still in Bali or Cambodia when I saw how old the place was. It was the 1st time I took a budget airline and I'm surprised at how good Jetstar Asia is.
The cabbies there are real scam, but sadly you don't have a choice. The Grand borneo hotel proves to be our first major nightmare. Though highly rated with boutique rooms, our rooms flooded when it rained that evening. You mean rain in your room? Well yeah =)
Tunku Abdul Rahman marine park. We faked ourselves as Malaysian students so we could get discounts. Thanks to our boat agency, we were forced to stay on a beach for 3 hrs. The clear water with fishes is probably the only good stuff on that island. The speedboat is a mean bitch, 90km/hr. Feels cool.
Hotel Bar. I swear the lady at the counter will miss us. The first time i tried GIN, good taste. But the moment Daniel Tang ordered GIN coke I almost puked.
Day Two: Daniel Tang told me to buy slippers in a mall, which i did, only to realize the Sunday market is 5 times cheaper. Doesn't matter cos i finally got a pair of illegally replicated sunglasses by Ferrari. Had lunch at 5-star chicken rice, which tasted awful compared to Singapore (I'm surprised). Went to Green Connection aquarium+zoo+science center. Very dilapidated but cool. Again we fooled them into believing that we are malaysians, got another discount ^O^
I swear the swimming pool at our hotel is the coldest I've been to, probably only 18 degrees. None of the others stayed past 3min in the pool except us. The towel man is a real pain, which is why he won't even let us bring up the hotel room.
Day Three: My first time in a World War 2 era train, feels damn nostalgic. The Padas river rafting is a must if any of you were to go KK next time.
Day Four: Snorkelling, if you see me tanned, you know why
Day Five: Mount Kinabalu park is a real scammer. we were preparing to say some malay to convince the toll that we are malaysian students for a 2RM ticket. But our face turned black when our driver went up and introduce us as Singaporeans. First time in a 80km/hr car driving in a deep dusk fog, exciting.
Apologies for the delay in posting about the trip to Kota Kinabalu. Those who laid their eyes on the East malaysian state for the first time could be forgiven for wondering how this dilapidated town can be safer than Malacca and Kuala Lumpur. Truth is it is, and it is a place with absolute awesomeness.
Day One: Lucas Lim's father always satisfies my hunger for speed in his Toyota Wish, ultimate imbar power. 4 years after I set foot again in Terminal 1. For once i thought I was still in Bali or Cambodia when I saw how old the place was. It was the 1st time I took a budget airline and I'm surprised at how good Jetstar Asia is.
The cabbies there are real scam, but sadly you don't have a choice. The Grand borneo hotel proves to be our first major nightmare. Though highly rated with boutique rooms, our rooms flooded when it rained that evening. You mean rain in your room? Well yeah =)
Tunku Abdul Rahman marine park. We faked ourselves as Malaysian students so we could get discounts. Thanks to our boat agency, we were forced to stay on a beach for 3 hrs. The clear water with fishes is probably the only good stuff on that island. The speedboat is a mean bitch, 90km/hr. Feels cool.
Hotel Bar. I swear the lady at the counter will miss us. The first time i tried GIN, good taste. But the moment Daniel Tang ordered GIN coke I almost puked.
Day Two: Daniel Tang told me to buy slippers in a mall, which i did, only to realize the Sunday market is 5 times cheaper. Doesn't matter cos i finally got a pair of illegally replicated sunglasses by Ferrari. Had lunch at 5-star chicken rice, which tasted awful compared to Singapore (I'm surprised). Went to Green Connection aquarium+zoo+science center. Very dilapidated but cool. Again we fooled them into believing that we are malaysians, got another discount ^O^
I swear the swimming pool at our hotel is the coldest I've been to, probably only 18 degrees. None of the others stayed past 3min in the pool except us. The towel man is a real pain, which is why he won't even let us bring up the hotel room.
Day Three: My first time in a World War 2 era train, feels damn nostalgic. The Padas river rafting is a must if any of you were to go KK next time.
Day Four: Snorkelling, if you see me tanned, you know why
Day Five: Mount Kinabalu park is a real scammer. we were preparing to say some malay to convince the toll that we are malaysian students for a 2RM ticket. But our face turned black when our driver went up and introduce us as Singaporeans. First time in a 80km/hr car driving in a deep dusk fog, exciting.