Black Tuesday
Definitely not the best tuesday I have experienced in my life, in fact not even the closet tragedy comes within a thousand miles of this. A serious offence was commited and I pleaded to it telling myself that I did the right thing by not covering my mistake, mistakes which people make everyday yet not having courage or ethics to blister themselves instead of finding cover.
Negligence Discharge of a 5.56mm blank round, if it was a live round that I fired someone would be dead by now. Dead, something like someone wading into Bedok Reservoir and never come back on his own accord. As such, I was charged with Stoppage Of Leave for a good 7 days.
I do understand that there are at least a thousand others who made similar offences in the history and probably in the next hundred thousand years of history. However, the impact which sledgehammed the mind when it is fired at someone leaves a mark deep beneath. Thankfully, the particle that came out of the muzzle that was aiming at the head of someone else was not a projectile from the head of a bullet, just hot air. Easily it would turn into a scar, dropping your soul into an abyss inside your heart, producing a lifeless frame of you who only knows how to regret.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Solemn Judgement
I'll just be frank on this one. It is pretty boring and unglamorous for me to repeat everything that I have done before. Sadly, I have to because it is a requirement. On contrary to strucking a gold mine I would label this as unfortunate. Well pretty much, it has been rather true that one would beg for objectives after idling around for some time. My conclusion, just don't pray for an easy life.
As an infant we started our lives as dwellings crawling out empires on the surface of earth using our bare hands. It seems pretty relaxed and cheerful for us and the people around. As we progress and grow older, we began to ask for bargains in our lives, in any ways we can think of to ease our daily pressure. Fortunately however, we usually get our ways and according to plan, live a good life. Mind you to beware of that because life is predetermined by your actions. This is the first argument that minnows may attempt to argue.
A sad case that happened 2 months ago threw me back into the suffering I have undergone a season ago. Fortunately I understood all the requirements and skills crucial for cruising past the course again. Unfortunately however, I found it pretty boring, the sense that you are thrown into the abyss of forging ahead into unknown territories full of obstacles is gone, totally gone, not even a dust remains in this pithole. You may think that we are living a life full of pressure and challenges. Appreciate that before it is gone and you depart from this sanctuary forever into the dawn skies.
I'll just be frank on this one. It is pretty boring and unglamorous for me to repeat everything that I have done before. Sadly, I have to because it is a requirement. On contrary to strucking a gold mine I would label this as unfortunate. Well pretty much, it has been rather true that one would beg for objectives after idling around for some time. My conclusion, just don't pray for an easy life.
As an infant we started our lives as dwellings crawling out empires on the surface of earth using our bare hands. It seems pretty relaxed and cheerful for us and the people around. As we progress and grow older, we began to ask for bargains in our lives, in any ways we can think of to ease our daily pressure. Fortunately however, we usually get our ways and according to plan, live a good life. Mind you to beware of that because life is predetermined by your actions. This is the first argument that minnows may attempt to argue.
A sad case that happened 2 months ago threw me back into the suffering I have undergone a season ago. Fortunately I understood all the requirements and skills crucial for cruising past the course again. Unfortunately however, I found it pretty boring, the sense that you are thrown into the abyss of forging ahead into unknown territories full of obstacles is gone, totally gone, not even a dust remains in this pithole. You may think that we are living a life full of pressure and challenges. Appreciate that before it is gone and you depart from this sanctuary forever into the dawn skies.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Pride and Prejudice
No, I am not writing a famous novel. It is just the smuggness I am getting whenever i was called for duty. I am the Company Orderly Sergeant and today is a public holiday. It could be because of my experience in doing such duties and the amount of time I spent here that I didn't really feel depressed and devastated when i found out my duty. No, I would never get into such state.
Always taking pride in the stuffs that I do in my life, serving a country which I have no blood connection but decided to since it has given me education and a life. Mind you there is a difference between happiness and living a good life. I would prefer whichever that gives me peace and the goals that I want to achieve in my life.
As much as I would like to, I hope to get back whatever that I sacrificed for serving duties given by the army and my destiny. Sadly, I am matured to give myself a knock in my head, telling my heart that I have to endure such unfortunate times in my life which I have and will always be experiencing like all other people. Life is formless, it is the chance that gives people the advantage and disadvantage. Like I have said earlier, there is no such thing as luck. Your future is crafted by your own hands. It is reasonable and foolish to complain about life since it will do nothing but ruin plans and time further.
Have a nice view of life.
No, I am not writing a famous novel. It is just the smuggness I am getting whenever i was called for duty. I am the Company Orderly Sergeant and today is a public holiday. It could be because of my experience in doing such duties and the amount of time I spent here that I didn't really feel depressed and devastated when i found out my duty. No, I would never get into such state.
Always taking pride in the stuffs that I do in my life, serving a country which I have no blood connection but decided to since it has given me education and a life. Mind you there is a difference between happiness and living a good life. I would prefer whichever that gives me peace and the goals that I want to achieve in my life.
As much as I would like to, I hope to get back whatever that I sacrificed for serving duties given by the army and my destiny. Sadly, I am matured to give myself a knock in my head, telling my heart that I have to endure such unfortunate times in my life which I have and will always be experiencing like all other people. Life is formless, it is the chance that gives people the advantage and disadvantage. Like I have said earlier, there is no such thing as luck. Your future is crafted by your own hands. It is reasonable and foolish to complain about life since it will do nothing but ruin plans and time further.
Have a nice view of life.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Disaster
Half a year without bowling and what is the result? Bad games? I can absolutely assure you that it is much worse than that. During the first frame of the first game, the ball flew up barely hitting the alley ceiling before thundering a blow onto the alley floor, creating a sound which draws the attention of almost everyone at the location at that time. Embarrassing? Oh no, it is much worse than anything from farting at a crowded venue or peeing with doors opened. Seriously, what do you expect me to do? I simply rubbed more dry powder and pretend that it is an accident due to over friction from my thumb. That pretty much concluded my disastrous week.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Lands of Mirage
Now, when I started painting I didn't expect to accomplish any works which would be referred as creations of a mad artist. Lest expected, you get addicted to the abyss of endless creation which is pretty much what the writer of this post is currently experiencing. Pleasantly however, he likes the smell; aroma of linseed oil (or odour for those who are not genetically fated with art) fragrancing the room. To be exact, time must wind back 7 weeks before my campaign begun. A campaign to facade an artist who pursued color creativity to someone adamant on the usage of accurate color, pardon me if I wouldn't classify it as 'realistic'. So, these are the works:
Dawn of the horizon
Eternal Green
Sakura
http://www.facebook.com/patias#!/photo.php?fbid=2232469542742&set=a.2173592550854.117755.1578011267&type=1&theater
Due to the internet security in a typical Singapore army camp, downloading and uploading of pictures are not recommended as that would slap you with a confinement and/or detention.
Now, when I started painting I didn't expect to accomplish any works which would be referred as creations of a mad artist. Lest expected, you get addicted to the abyss of endless creation which is pretty much what the writer of this post is currently experiencing. Pleasantly however, he likes the smell; aroma of linseed oil (or odour for those who are not genetically fated with art) fragrancing the room. To be exact, time must wind back 7 weeks before my campaign begun. A campaign to facade an artist who pursued color creativity to someone adamant on the usage of accurate color, pardon me if I wouldn't classify it as 'realistic'. So, these are the works:
Dawn of the horizon
Eternal Green
Sakura
http://www.facebook.com/patias#!/photo.php?fbid=2232469542742&set=a.2173592550854.117755.1578011267&type=1&theater
Due to the internet security in a typical Singapore army camp, downloading and uploading of pictures are not recommended as that would slap you with a confinement and/or detention.
