Level of screwedness: 47.9%
Hope of kicking back to JC1: 23.1%

I'm so screwed. It is today that I wonder why did I choose both China Studies AND Art. They are really killing the shit out of me. China Studies Proposal stage is already sickening and then there was Art, a subject that is brain-draining me. I'm almost out of ideas!!!!!! Sleeping at 2-3 am everyday for 2 weeks is hell, I experience it and I know. Art especially, personally I think I suck at it, really. I'm not an abstract person so I can't really think of any good ideas to put on my preperatory boards. I think my main problem is the complexity of my prep works. It sucks serisouly and I swear I will work for as long as it goes until I can get it correct. People say you've got to work on double on things you are not good at so, yeah I guess its another 3-4 weeks of 4hr sleep/day. Thankfully I'm not an OGL if not I'm 99.99% screwed.

Dear Lord, I sincerely hope that things will change for the better, Amen